I've been reading over other people's blogs for a bit, and I came back to my own blog and thought YUCK! I can't possibly be that boring person who posts about craft projects she is working, can I? The new car thing is ok, but everything else -- boring!!
But I can't decide who I *do* want to be -- do I want to be the folks who just got married (naming no names) and who have gorgeous wedding pics, or the gurl who is posting articles about women gamers, or the ladies & gents who post thoughtful pieces about how events in their lives make them think about the future and other dept thoughts. Or ... someone else. None of this really reflects "me" as I picture myself. I feel like I've got too many hats on, or something -- I mean no one on tv lives a life as a Computer Science professor, and then goes home and knits! And in between that I do laundry and play the toothfairy and bandage scrapes and buy school supplies and do the wife thing with my husband... but none of the parts feel like they make a whole. And none of the people I interact with seem to think that either; when I'm at work I kind of feel like I have to pretend I don't have a family, and hobbies, and outside interests; when I'm at home I don't want to think about work; and when I'm with friends I mostly play mom these days. And I even have separate blogs about all these things, which, if you think about it, is kind of weird. Unfortunately they've all been neglected except this one for about a year now.
Does everyone have this self-image inconsistency? I feel like my blog is kind of a mirror; a mirror of my soul, if you like. And right now it's not reflecting "me". Who is it reflecting? Well, now that's a good question.
I guess the mirror analogy is a good one; if you look in the mirror and don't like what you see, well, my advice would be to change it! So maybe that's what I should do...